Mental & Emotional (M.E.)

Wellbeing

I was behaving out of character everyday by the time I figured out I was almost completely broken down. I was angry at the world! I’ve always been a champion of everyone being treated with respect, but now I was hyper vigilant and overly sensitive to these needs. One whiff of disrespect and I was all over it demanding that you correct the words or actions. Do you know how many times one would encounter something like this in a day? The other problem was that I was internalizing the disrespect and becoming increasingly angry everyday. My peace had been disrupted. There were many steps I had to take to reassemble my mental and emotional wellbeing, and just like your body it must be maintained daily.

Climbing out of depression required me accepting the fact that I have the life society considers to be successful while knowing it wasn’t at all what I hoped it would be. I bought a house, nice car, had a good savings, good credit score, and comfortable living. It wasn’t enough. The drive to wake up everyday excited about what I would be doing wasn’t there. This is when I had to looked about my definition of success. We often hear celebrities say having money doesn’t solve your problems and we scoff. “It could sure solve most of my problems!” I said it too. It would be nice not to worry how your going to keep a roof over your head, eat, pay your bills and so on. I’m here to tell you it is nice not to worry about those things, but if it means spending 1/3 of your day doing something you have little to no interest in 5 days a week, it will start to take a toll. And in the back of your mind you know if you stop doing that job, you won’t be able to afford that lifestyle, so you continue.

Success to me now means: 1. I love who I am. 2. I love what I do. 3. I love how I do it.

Most of the things we have been taught in life have been the results of behavior and habits in response to trauma, causing most people to live in fear. Fear of failure, rejection, ridicule, judgement etc. By changing my perspective on life and choosing positivity, I was able to work through some of my fears about pursuing my creative dreams. I have interests and goals that are specific to who I am and what I believe, and owed it to myself to diligently work towards those goals. We have all the tools it takes to succeed, and for those tools we don’t have, we have the capacity to learn. I’m finally stepping out on a limb, starting from the foundation of who I am and deciding to do the work to build an empire. I understand that success comes from within. Every thought, decision, feeling and action I make, no matter how small, is a step toward success. Discovering who I am and consciously deciding each step daily has most definitely helped me to become successful. The M.E. page is dedicated to sharing my challenges with mental and emotional wellbeing and the tools I use to conquer them daily.

Personal Reflections (my journal)

School of Hard Knocks (Life lessons)